Respect your efforts, respect yourself. Self-respect leads to self-discipline. When you have both firmly under your belt, that's real power.
Clint Eastwood
Let me be real for a second here…. Let me be totally honest.
Clint Eastwood
Let me be real for a second here…. Let me be totally honest.
For at least the past year and a half I have failed… epically. I allowed myself to be stripped of so much confidence, independence, discipline, and honesty. I have hidden, laid low, and allowed myself to be defeated.
Defeated by life. My mother’s death makes me angry.
Defeated by my inner demons. Ocd, depression, food addiction, lack of self discipline, laziness, bad habits
Defeated by health issues. Always tired, exhausted, dizzy and falling asleep. Weight.
I realise when I look at the issues above, they are all connected. Months before my mother was diagnosed with cancer, I had been doing well. My doing well involved a healthy daily routine, and morning gym time. I was losing weight. I was healthier mentally.
After a bad ocd episode, I slowly started to fall apart. Not only was my mental state failing, but some physical issues popped up as well. Mixed with no energy, headaches and dizziness, life seemed impossible. The doctors couldn’t pinpoint what was going on, so I started to wonder if I was just lazy and using depression as an excuse for not being able to do anything.
Add in my feelings in regards to what we went through with Mom, It does not surprise me that I have allowed myself to be defeated. However, now it is time to take my life back.
I am not so exhausted anymore. A new doctor figured out my iron and B12 was low. Mixed in with my mental state, it was just enough to fuck me up. ;) Thankfully a cat scan and other blood work proved that it was nothing more serious.
I thought I was ready before, I was not. I am ready now. I am more prepared. I am more healed. I am more at peace. I have no more excuses. It is time to take control over myself again. Its time for me to be the Dominant, Independent, Healthy, “Future Amy” that I have hidden deep inside me.
For this to work I must break bad habits, and improve my self-discipline. They say it takes an average of 66 days to form a new habit. Ideally I would like to form some new habits, but mostly just break some bad ones.
After much research on self-discipline, I am ready.. or as ready as I will ever be… to start a new beginning.
I have been working on a seven day plan, which starts tonight. While it’s only seven days, it will be the stepping stones for a bigger better plan.
I will not sleep in. I will not allow myself to sleep more than 8 hours.
I will eat breakfast, lunch and supper.
I will not eat any fried food.
I will get physical exercise every day. (walking the dog does not count)
I will work on my skating for derby at least 3 times this week. (stance/crossovers/endurance/balance)
I will finish a full day’s work every day.
I will not watch any meaningless television unless all chores are done, and I am having downtime with Antz. This will not exceed 3.5 hours for the whole week.
I will not spend any meaningless time online. I will allow myself to blog my updates and check emails. I will only respond to those necessary.
I will keep a food diary.
I will text less, and be less attached to my phone.
While a simple google search gives some excellent resources for self-discipline, here are a few links..
http://www.google.ca/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=self%20discipline%20in%2010%20days&source=web&cd=3&sqi=2&ved=0CEIQFjAC&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.forexfactory.com%2Fattachment.php%3Fattachmentid%3D695316%26d%3D1304976145&ei=7CK3TrOOG-Hi0QHzqdXVBA&usg=AFQjCNER6diJgVUtiUgGOZuBnPAhZMd0uQ
